I realise I’m very scared. I’m really quite fit at the moment, and well although the CT scans might indicate otherwise. By tomorrow evening I know I’m not going to be fit for anything and, once the chemo starts, it’s going to take months to recover. I’m assuming of course I will recover but I also realise I have no idea what’s going tohappen.
Tomorrow seems to be the start of a whole new phase of my life, and I’m not in control. That’s why I’m scared.